| What happened to high school?
I miss it to be quite candid with you. Things may have been dramatic, but they were a lot easier and simpler. College made everything weird for me. My life got scattered. My friends were thrown like jacks and I just want to be the kid with the rubber ball who can snatch them all back up again. I feel like for some reason that rubber ball is bouncing further and further away. I can't seem to get things back to the way they used to be. All I want to do is go home. I hate it here, I hate being away from my life. Even if I go home and there's no one left, it's better than being far away and having lost it all. Home never leaves. It's stuck there. The places I know like the back of my hand and the memories I've had there. Ralph's in the summer, the herricks theater that sucks, but for some reason we've all been there anyway. Iceland where I went a million times, but for some reason I still can't ice skate. Nelstein's classroom where even when I didn't have her class I went to talk to her or to barge in on her class and annoy her. I can't go back to high school. I hate knowing I can't go back. It's the worst feeling. I feel like I got locked out of the best party ever and for some reason the key is gone. The best years of my life are gone and lost the recipe for how to make more. I hate losing things. |
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| Back to xanga.
It's been a while and a lot has changed. Everything is different now, but everything is pretty much the same as it used to be in a lot of ways. I guess this will be the journal of a new and somewhat improved me. I think I'm looking forward to it. |
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| I GOT INTO COLLEGE!!!!!!!
University of Hartford
$10,000 Scholarship. Woot! |
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